I'm happy to review "Lessons from a hospital bed" by John Piper. I personally also experienced the same thing, spent the night in the hospital, did not know when i would return home, was depressed bt illness, but behind the suffering God was a God who did not remain silent. He works. He never leaves me.
Christ is al sufficient for every situation. In the hospital, He is the preeminet physician.
"For which cause we faint not, but through our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day. " For our light affliction , which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory;" - 2 Cor 4:16-17
This affliction is "preparing" a weight of glory.
So in other words, your suffering actually has an effect on your future glory.
If we bear it in faith for the honor of Christ, it is a catapult to greater glory. Jesus is with you. Not even the worst pain in wasted in His hands.
It is okay to pray with simple, short outburnts of need thanks and praise :
- Help me , Lord to trust You
- Have mercy, Lord. I need You. I can hardly think
- Save me, Lord from unbelief an sin
- I believe, Lord, Help my unbelief
- Thank you for Your mercy
- Thank you, Jesus, that You loved me and gave Yourself for me
- Thank you, Father, that there is no condemnation for me in Christ Jesus
- Use me, Jesus, to magnify Your great worth
- Satisfy me in your steadfast love, no matter what happens here.